“life will be better in spring”

October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011



Sry I was short with you earlier . Was angry and felt so fucked-up . Better now (: .

I have an addition to My List of Fave Bands : TheWANTED
About them :
Irish-British Guys .
5 Members : Tom, Nathan, Max, Jay & Siva .
Debut Single : All Time Low
My Fave Song of em’: Lose My Mind ;

If heartache was a physical pain I could face it, I could face it,
but your hurting me from the side of my head I cant take it, I cant take it
Im gonna LOSE MY MIND !

I am officially in LOVE with Tom Parker , One of the members of The Wanted . Theyre Irish-British Guys & DAMN HOT ! ! !Their cover of Chery Cole’s Fight for this Love is soo .. Awesomazing ! (Zee , jangan marah aku copy word kaw ehk . )All Time Low , their Debut single’s Awesome too . OMG Tom Parker’s Face cant get outta my HEAD !

I always fall in LOVE with Guys whos birthday are close to mine ;
2nd August
4th August [!] TOM PARKER [!]
6th August
5th June
Guess its affinity& my destiny *sigh

My first month anniversary with Nelson is coming up but we haven’t got in touch for 2weeks now . :’(
Oh & we started on the 5th of November . Yeah , near to my bdae again .

Ohkay chill babe . Another month to go before school . actually ,im kinda contradicting myself . couple of weeks ago I said I hated the hols , wanted to go back to school . now , huh , im ready to say BYE to school & go work but well , UNDERAGE&NOT ENOUGH EXPERIENCE . cos right now , i feel I have no friends . no one texts me , or connects with me on facebook . or asked me out(except fr Faith but I rejected cos Chae Min’s thre .) or calls . even a simple text saying hi I miss you can be good enough cos then I know at least ive got ONE FRIEND whos out thre waiting to meet me again . I wanna escape frm this world , go to Vegas & to Nelson . My Bad-Ass attitude’s gone too . now , I just feel really soul-less . im happy enough here at home , waking up at 0730/0800 evry morning , with each day planned fr a diff activity . even if thres noth planned , im happy enough looking aftr my siblings , playing with em’ , cooking with my mum , watching TV & comp-ing & just thinking alone while music plays . I wanna be a journalist & move to America FAST ! SPEEDO ! 10years/hour . So that means I can wait fr an hour before I can start making my dreams come true .

Ive never really explained why I wanna be a journo have I ? well , I got lotsa time so here goes . I wanna travel around the world , meet people. I wanna be a journo for a magazine . more specifinally , a teens magazine . im a teen & my refuge from the harsh world is music&visual materials & my mum . Yep , no friends . cos sometimes theyre the ones who make this world harsh . so I wanna entertain them with interview from their fave stars(NO KOREAN STARS!ONLY ENGLISH!) quirky columns&stories . I’ll also get to travel here&there to meet stars, go to movie premiers to write a report about . Yeah , just that .



Got a new TV ! But I missed so much shows ! Starting Friday :
American Gladiators
Mrs P.I.
America’s Got Talent
Survivor : Nicaragua

Saturday :
Making of HP7
Step Up(which I alrdy watched so not much of a biggie . )

That’s all;

I feel so peaceful seeing Qaisara(my 6-months-old baby sis) sleep . The most comforting thing right now is to have her sleep in my arms , which she does almost evry evening (:

I gotta go , .


1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Oh yeah . Be awesome if hes HOT !

2. Smart?
No nerds please .

3. Preferred age?
Older but no more than 13 yrs older .


4. Preferred height?
The tip of my head at his chin .

5. How about sense of humor?
OF COURSE !
6. How about piercings?
HELL no . if he does have them before I dated him , then he mustn’t put anything in em .

7. Accepts you for who you are?
If not , **** OFF !

8. Pink Hair?
BYE !

10. Thin or fat?
Huggable ,

11. skin colour?
Tanned . Like me (:

12. Long hair or short hair?
Preferably short . but whtevr suits him uhh .

13. Plastic or metal?
Wtf ?
14. Smells good?
I wont even go near him if he stinks .
15. Smoker?
I’ll encourage & help him to stop .
16. Drinker?
Not a heavy drinker though.
17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
Theyre cute .
18. Muscular?
Fit & Huggable

19. Plays piano?
Romantic

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
Acoustic guitar !

21. Plays violin?
Sweet !

22. Sings very well?
Im an ice under a 44oC Hot sun .

23. Vain?
Not to the extend that he must look at the mirror or go to the toilet to tidy or make his hair every single hour.

24. With glasses?
Fine .

25. With braces?
Sure .

26. Shy type?
As long as hes not too shy & not shy to me .

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
In Between .

28. Active or passive?
Active

30. Singer or dancer?
Dancer

31. Stunner?
Sure .

32. Hiphop?
OKAY !

33. Earrings?
NO .

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
*slaps face* BYE !

35. Dimples?
Whatevr suits him .

36. Bookworm?
Sure but not a nerd .

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
Please !

38. Playful?
Heheeee yes please !

39. Flirt?
With me yeah , with othrs , hmm , okay but no touchy-touchy and just for fun !

40. Poem writer?
(:

41. Serious?
When the time asks him to be .

42. Campus crush?
Why not?

43. Painter?
Sure .

44. Religious?
Not really, but at least respect every religons.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
Not annoying.

46. Computer games geek?
No thanks! It ruined relationships.

47. Speaks 20 languages?
Hmm… AWESOME!

48. Loyal or faithful?
Loyally Faithful .

49. good kisser?
A MUST !

50. loves children?
Yeah .

Got this at Hatim’s blog . Lawl Lah . Gonna watch Harry Potter 7 on Tues ALONE . BOO ! .NVM . It’s the movie that’s important . :P
I really love my darling Qaisara . My Baby Sis . Literally , Baby . Shes coming to 5 months tmrw . (: .
Messages .
Woah you …
Oh so no time for me ahh ? k FINE ! don’t ever come to me again for chats .
WHATHEFUCK YOUDAMNFUCKINGTV ! I KNOW YOURE 10 YEARS OLD BUT WHY MUST YOU SPOIL ON A FRIDAY ?!?!?! WHY NOT TODAY !?!?!?!?! FUCK YOU !
NOTH ELSE ! sp mad /.BYE !

Okay so I gotta make this a fast one .

Im gonna go watch HP alone cos as a matter of fact among my friends im the only obsessed-with-harry-potter girl . Roman’s a fan but hes not free . So yeah , alone ! todays the 17th of Nov . Today Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows Part 1 came out in Singapore . It’s the 2nd last Harry Potter movie in Singapore . I know JKR said thre would most probably be more books but theyre not gonna be the same cos Harry’s journey has ended unless JKR creates another enemy for Harry to fight . and the worst part ? even if she does , Daniel Radcliffe♥ wouldn’t be starring in it he said it himself . so yeah . it’s the end . :’( .

I finished the bk I talked about the last post . In the end , she gave up on Justin&the confronting part, Emil saw & believed with his own eyes that Mia is regretful . so they came together . so sweet ♥ //

Yeah so the stuff planned for my hols ;
30th Nov ; HP7 Part 1♥
Somewhre in Dec ; WWW with Family
.. AND …. THAT’S IT ! YAY ! Riciculous . 2 WHOLE BLOODY FUCKING MONTHS & NO PLANS OTHER THAN THIS ?!?!?!?!?

Yeah so . Humhpfft ! BLUEK ! BOO ! what else . hmm , I know . FUCK ! yay . my favourite word .

K so . blah blah blah noth els . Yeah the only thing im progressing with is my Dance Dance Revoulution Stages & my hols hmwk . bloody fucking holidays . dumbass . fucking shit .

UWAHHH !!!! :’(

First of all , my messages ;

Whatthefuck is WRONG WITH YOU ?!?!?!!?

Stop it eh !

Shutthefuckofashitup !

Baby I miss you so much ! I cant fly to Vegas so can you fly here ? Bet not ): . When can you get to Nella ? Miss yah so much !
[this is obviously to Nelson]

Noth else .

K seriously my mood was hyped up not 10 mins ago & a call from you made me so angry&unhappy . By this , I bet my arse you have to realize how important you are to me & how much I miss you .

Humphfft !
Kk look at the lights darling think !

I love the book She’s With The Band by Georgia Clark . Damn horny , but still .

Thankyousomuch mummyiloveyoudamnlots ! She bought me this new , simple nicenicenice pink/violet dress . Finally occasionally I can chuck away my tshirt&slacks fr something more feminine . When I take a pic when im in it I’ll upload kehs ?

221110 Im gonna watch Harry Potter & The Deathly Hallows Part 1 ! ;DDDDD !!!

Would you rather pick a guy that you WANT , or a guy that you NEED ? This is one of the topics in the book She’s with the Band . The protagonist/Mia picked Justin, hot jock,evry girl’s dream&Mia’s man , who she WANTS , but then founds him French-kissing with his ex . So Mia , turns to Emil whose this fun geeky boy she loves to hang with&whose love is exactly what she NEEDS . but thn Emil thought that Mia turns to him just cos Justin seems like hes gonna dump her . Thn nw , Mia decided since Emil doesn’t want her & Justin didnt directly say that he doesn’t want her either ,Mia’s gonna fight with Justin’s ex , named Nikki , to get Justin to be Mia’s man . And I stopped thre to comp-ing .

I am seriously a pathethic loser not one person comes and read my blog . But thn again , I don’t mind cos a blog is like a diary&I have to keep one cos if not my feelings will be all bottled up & will one day , make me explode . Which I did once . since then , I said , if a HUMAN BEING cant be bothered to listen to me , an ANIMAL cant understand what im saying , a NON-LIVING THING will make ppl think im crazy , I might as well use technology . so here I am .

I don’t get it . why am I being so emotional . I geddit actually . its hormones cos im a teen . but why cant I control my hormones . why must my hormones get the better of me . im sick of it . since school . ive been such a drama bitch .

Im tired of this . I just wanna curl up with Nel&sleep . sleep till all my troubles are gone . which is not possible cos Nel’s in Vegas , and cause getting drunk or sleeping wont do anything but take yr mind off things . key word : TEMPORARILY .

Adios .
Pathethic Bitch


Saap . .
K im getting dead bored tis hols .
Its only the first week .
Haihsh … !

Lawl laaaah .

Btw , im no longer a bachelorette .
Im in a relationship with Nelson& somehow we’re virtually married lawl (:
We webcam whnevr we chat .
I miss him alrdy . I just talked to him last night . He was so sweet&innocent .
But thn I asked Cel if me steading with him means me betraying ***** . She said no . She also advised me to get rid of my feelings for ***** & just focus on Nel . Been really hard to do that . Haish boys boys boys . kk no more talk of boys .

I so hope I can go to EC with JL next Friday .

Im addicted to Bruno Mars //

My sister is so annoying .

Nth els . Real bored God help me !

Im dead cos im fucking bored . Blame the hols ,
CyclonicManiac

I f*cking hate sore throats . They piss me off .

Down with super-bad flu&sore throat . BUURFRHHH !!!!! -.-‘’’’ !!!!
Dammit sia .

You know , ive been going to chatrms recently and found one which is super .. dk hw to describe luh . Some really , irritating , naughty&dirty guys , othrs somewhat fine . in fact, I made 5 friends ,, 2 of wht idk their names . the othr 3 , Nelson(Las Vegas),Dave(frgt) & Tonny(China) . Closest with Nelson . Been chatting with him A LOT !

No messages cos it’s the fucking hols . Bloody shit .

Had so much fun playing Dance Dance Revolution on my Wii .

Oh , and I just rmbrd one of my convo with Tonny which was funny ;

Tonny: Do you know Chinese?
Me: Yeah
T: really?
M:Yeah don’t believe me ?
T: *types some chinese stuff*
M: I can SPEAK chinese , not READ chinese . thres a diff .
T: But you said you understand
M: I just made myself clear . I only know how to SPEAK . not READ !
T: But you said
M: I don’t care what I said I just know I can speak , not READ ! Stop pissing me off or I’ll log out
T: ok ok sorry . tui pu chi. Wo zhe tao wo zhuo . (translation;sorry. I know im wrg) .

LOL >? Othrs askd fr cams & pics . said no ofcourse . cant stand these guys . Thn thres Nelson . Oh so sweet Nelson . Real Romantic & Sweet . AND HE LIVES IN BLOODY LAS VEGAS !!!! UWEK !!! Been wanting to go thre . been wanting to go to USA !!!

Thres nth really much to do this hols . and ive still 2 more bloody fucking months to go . I think the whole of 1E2’2010 graduated to 2E2’2011 .

Woah its 2011 so quickly .

Thres nth els really . it’s the hols and ive nt much freedom to go out with frnds . so yeah , no point .

Yrs till boredom ends …,, -.-‘’’ !!!
Maryam Stino