“life will be better in spring”

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Today has been like shit...
Look on the bright side ?hmm...
1.I just rejected a guy I like
2.my besties are treating me like shit
3.my sibs are as annoying as ever foto :D

and ure asking me to look on the BRIGHT side ? c'me on..GET A LIFE !!!

Story 1 -- Home Econs lesson
Linus asking winnie 4 sweet..Winnie said," go and ask maryam whether she wants to be with you and I'll give you one."
He asked me
Linus : "Maryam do you want to be with me ?" so sweetly..
then I actually heard wht Winnie said to Linus altho it was in chinese thn I said no...I dnt want another "Roman" case..also dnt wanna confess 4 nothing cos our relationship was getting on fine and i dnt wanna ruin it all..thn winnie went to Jl's table and called me over...Thn I came and she asked me :

W : "Why you said no ?!?"
M : "dont wanna confess for nothing.He was joking anywaes..."
W : "HE WAS ASKING YOU FOR STEAD !!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY THE HELL YOU SAY NO ?!? YOU LIKE HIM SIA !!!"
M : "OMG !!! I...HE...ASKED ME ???!?!?!?!?!?"
W : "._. yes he did maryam.."

And i was like so freaking out !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Truth is,ever since I tried to forget Roman,i said focus on smeone elz n u will forget the past one..Focused on Linus thn w/o realizing it i fall for him..thn told besties..thn he asked me for stead and I said NO ?!?!? I mean,come on !! every guy that I like,I always imagined us to be together..had a chance and I pushed it away ?!?! It was rite in my face and I said NO ?!?!? WHAT AN IDIOT AM I ?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!??!?!?! thn day went on...

story 2 -- ending school...
NO nid to tell tis..

Story 3 -- Home..
dnt nid either..

basically,my life is now like shit..let me repeat :
1.I just rejected a guy I like
2.my besties are treating me like shit
3.my sibs are as annoying as ever
4.My phone bills gonna be as high as hell.Mum gonna keep mum but i feel really bad cos she has to pay for my mistakes..I just wish tht person will stop smsing me..
let me cool off..ciao,btw,got caught in the rain again..

Dancer in the Rain//Hell's like shit//RETROFIED BABE :D(tis is an always!)

Halo peeps...
Today has been one of tha worst days ever....
Evthing was okay actually..
Kim as usual vulgar keep disturbing..
hahax used to it lah...
Thn lit we sat in big circle and I sat beside Danial..
YES !! DANIAL FROM 5 HONESTY'09 !!! THE FAMOUS MUHAMMAD DANIAL TAN WE MING !!
Thn during tht part we doing short play lah..
Thn I was one of the characters who had a big role...
oh god I miss acting man...
Thn overall was okay..
Thn during the discussion Danial kept looking at me and I was like,"What the hell lah you keep looking at me ?!"
Then he say "Cos you attractive mah...."
That really made my day///
I was like " oh thanks.."
hahax...
thn we made jokes till lit lesson end..
hahax so fun sia miss 5 honesty and his jokes...
Thn whts made my day the worst was art club..
Me,Lucille,Kimberly and Lin sat together..
Lucille & Kimberly was opposite me and HE(R) sat beside kimberly..
I was like,WHAT THE FUCK ?!?!?!?! CANT YOU SIT SOMEWHERE ELSE ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
thn thruout the art club session I just made Lucille's name in graffiti(LOVING IT !!)
Thn whn we went home,raining
Thn i played in the rain..
Lin,Kimberly & Lucille was so shocked at how wet I was..
I was like,this is normal...just havent played in the rain for a long time..
Thn Ckg Hidayah & Ms Nadia saw me..
"Oh shit busted lah sia..."
thn kena "scolding"
thn Lucille go rent umbrella frm General Office..
thn me,Lin & Keith Chan waited for her outside..
Mr teo came out of GO and saw me and said nothing...
Sarcastic,....
BLah3 went home
in the bus cold like hell...
AND....................!!!!!!!!!!!
END OF MY WORST DAY AT SCHOOL !!!
sarcastic..
buhbye lah wanna go home...YES IM NOT AT HOME....
Ciao..!
Dancer in the Rain//

Haiylo babies !
Today was like so,...mad..
Woke up 5.30 bt sleep back..
Thn 6.00 mummy wake me up.
bathed blah3.
This morn nid on comto print smth.
Thn print the thing is 3 pages.
Thn the 2nd page kena stuck so i pull out and it was all crushed with black ink all over.
The 3rd page okay.
Thn try print again and again and again.
At 6.28 I still cant print !!!
WAS SO PISSED OFF !!!! WHAT THE F*CK !!!!
In the end,found tht act there was some paper stuck in the printer so by 6.31 thn oni can.
By thn still haven tie hair..
lucky hair co-operated and took less than 5 mins to tie ; SUPER RARE !!
I mean in the morn tying my hair takes bout 10-15 mins.
Thn in the end,by 7.04 was still in the bus just leaving Bedok Reservoir.
sat wth adilah blah3.
Skip skip skip..
Nothng much...
Oh and btw a msg to KIM CHAE MIN !! ;
Oi Kim ! U think u very handsome is it ?!
Ya like hell lah my father more handsome sia !
AND I DONT LIKE JIN WEI GET THIS IN YOUR F*CKING HEAD !!!!!
Sial arr wht even made you THINK tht i like JW ?!?!?!?!
WTF !!!
BTW,SITING BESIDE YOU WAS THE WORST THING THAT HAPPENED TO ME WHILST I'M IN 1E2'10 !!!
THE WORST EVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bt tell u the truth I awaes go mad whn beside him...Laugh like hell thn vent out my anger also cos he very vulgar,worse than me so whn we fight all the vulgarities come out feels so great sia..hahax so smehw siting beside him fun but torterous also lah..
And btw,history lesson at around 12.15 half the class heads were on the table...Cos todays hist lesson not as fun as yday..Teacher kept talking and talking and talking...
Haiz..
GXY even sleep sia,..K lah ciao ciao first..
Buhbye..

RETROFIED_BABE XD !!

Haiyo !
Its supposed 2 be Hello !
hehe
Long time,well nt really lng...HuakHuak
Saturday was Sports Day !!
So fun siak !!!
A hell of a time @ Bedok Stadium from 7.30 - 12.00 !!
Woke up at 5.20,bathe,eat blah blah blah
A lil late
Made Winnie & JL angry (hehe!)
Then went up 222
a few bus stops..
Then,We dint really knw where to stop,so we followed the crowd
At a stop,a whole load of BGSS students went off
Then we oso fllw..
But the we saw that act there was 1 more stop to go !
All the curses came
As usual,I was hthe most vulgar..hehe
Thn we had to walk all the way to Bedok Stadium..
Winnie kept saying idiotic and I kept saying my fave word...Nt gnna tell u wurd,,
thn national anthem,blah blah blah,..skip skip skip..
Then went to our stands..
At first all were non-enthu
Cheerleaders were all enthu..
I guess we all havent wake up..
Thn suddenly saw Khairil..
Haha,cute as usual..
Then he was one of the cheerleaders,,
Frm there, became more hyper and more enthu..
Followed the cheerleaders to go and boo the other houses..Time we got our revenge cos they booed us at first..
Then there was a whole load of cheer but this is moi fave :

We're gonna boom Ruby(x2)
We're gonna tick-tick-tick-tick-tick boom Ruby
We're gonna boom Sapphire(x2)
We're gonna tick-tick-tick-tick-tick boom Sapphire
We're gonna boom Topaz(x2)
We're gonna tick-tick-tick-tick-tick boom Topaz
(CHEERS)

nice eh ?
Love it !
kept singing it e whole day
Then the day went on..
What was surprising was tht last minute i had to run..
I was like : WHAT THE ______ !!
It was 20x50m relay
Okay uhks,emerald 3rd..
Then the last was prize-giving and cheerleadng competition !
Emerald was the BEST !!! But they got 3rd !!
BBBBBBBBBBUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT....................
OVERALL...............

EMERALD 1ST POSITION !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

when they announced,Me jumped for joy together with the other cheerleaders who sat behind me(we were on the track then,not in the grandstands.)
They were all shouting like mad ! I joined in !
I DON'T CARE,WHATEVER IT IS,I'M GOING TO JOIN EMERALD CHEERLEADING STARTING NEXT YEAR AND UPHOLD THE NAME OF EMERALD CHEERLEADERS 2010 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST !!!!!!!!!

then went to Mac at Bedok Inter get some ice-cream then off home..
So happy emerald won !
Next year,we're gonna win again !!!

Proud_to_be_Emerald
Maryam//Eyka:)

Hallo ppl...Long time no see !
Lots happened in my life..Cant tell much now cos my mums snapping at me.
To get off the com!
Ive been on since 4 and its now 8,no wonder shes angry..
Im just gonna tell u a few things..
Ive gotten over Roman.,
How ?
We fought then I found him to be the total opposite of a gentlemen now.
Im just gonna follow Adi's advice
"Why get into a relationship now ? Forget him and concentrate on your studies.You'll find a better man later iny our life..."
Adi's 15,so hes like my big bro.Thanks Adi !
And someone came back to my life to create more trouble.My besties know who but Im not gonna tell u..
Tmrw's my schools sposrts day.
Fucking shit lah have to wake up at 5 cos 6 already go out
6.30 meet besties then by 7 have to be at Bedok Stadium
But the best part,is that the sports day sounds exciting !
Im gonna make my throat hoarse tmrw by screaming
Oh,btw,Emerald is LEADING WITH THE POINTS !!!!!!!
Im in emerald house,and its leading with 300++ points !
The other 3 houses are all 200++
Btw,a msg to Syukriah ; "Girl,TOPAZ SUCKSX !!!!!!!!!"
hahax..been fighting with people and hanging out with boys more often..Esp Linus..
hahax...Ive gotta go now or my eardrum will hurt even more ; MU MUM"S YELLING AT ME !!! OKAY MUM I"LL OFF NOW !!! SATISFIED ?!?!?!
Ciao babies !
~Gotten over you bastard !
Maryam//Eka